1812 Overture "Tchaikovsky"

It's the strangest thing. Whenever I hear this song, it moves me to tears. within like the first 2 minutes. It is such a moving song to me. I think they should play it at my funeral. LOL

I was looking for used bassoons online today. I used to play. pretty well. I had no idea, while in highschool/college, that the borrowed instrument I was toting around was probably worth 10K or more. In looking online, most used bassoons are WELL over $6000. There are a couple around $3000, but they are probably crap, right?

It is very disappointing to me, that I may never again be reunited with my love..(bassoon) due to it being so damn expensive. I always dreamed of playing in a symphony.

I was watching this show on MTV last night, about young people who had 6 figure jobs, and then lost their job due to the economy. They could not find a job after that. I mean, one ended up working as a waitress at a restaurant and lacky at a nail salon. One eventually got a hook up from a friend after about 6 months, and the other was trying to do her own business, but only made $40 in a month! It made me afraid to start going back to school. My current job is not AWESOME, but it is the best I have had, and not too shabby. It seems that the job market is so crap, it may be stupid to quit my job/or cut my hrs to pursue education. sigh.

Mr. Universe did NOT come over the other night, and I am sticking to my boundaries. GO ME:)

I've been thinking about baby daddy. I am worried about him. I just can not wrap my mind around his level of fuckery. I think he is mentally ill. That thought is what makes me feel sympathy and worry. Maybe he is crazy and just never diagnosed. I just thought he was selfish, but this shit is just waaaaaay beyond normal. He is living as a homeless person just to avoid child support? I don't get it.

I watched the movie: Falling Down yesterday. I love that movie. It's about a guy who loses it one day. He kills quite a few people through out the day. He kills anyone who gets in his way or pisses him off. I would never do such a thing, but sometimes I think I want to. LOL (shhhhhhh that is our little secret)

I'm trying to figure out if I want a readership for this blog. I know if I use this URL when commenting on others.. that it will bring readership, but it makes me nervous. I'm stranger than most people know. LOL